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Hi my name is Zodie
Taking this journey of faith with you one breath at a time!
Just a girl who went from feeling alone whilst still surrounded to discovering that in her quiet moments alone and words spoken in her heart she wasn't truly alone in her life because right there whilst pursuing life was someone concerned and listening to the private cries of her confused & breaking heart!
My Story
This won't be a long bio and I won't give you the full details of the book because it is a book I would highly recommend you go and read yourself but in summary this is how it began for me and I have so much more to testify on as you read more of my life changing journey through the blog and on the retreats!
13.09.2020
Cousin "Hey, Can I send you something?"
Me "What you sending..."
Cousin "It's a surprise"
My life changed the moment I received that surprise gift, it was a book called "The Uninvited" by Lysa Terkeurst (click to buy the book) given to me by my cousin during lockdown in 2020, during this time was tough as I fell into deep depression, as soon as there was silence and the busyness stopped thoughts came flooding in and I was overwhelmed by the memories of all the experiences I had that left me struggling with the constant rejection I faced, abandonment, not feeling worthy for anyone, not feeling enough and not feeling loved I was trying to figure out why? and I was very confused, "ain't I pursuing all the things that is to do with life, why do I feel so empty?" drowning in these thoughts I was also trying to figure out how did I get here? and I asked this because for me this wasn't my usual response to life, being strong and smiling is how I operated but what was happening inside of me what the real feelings, in this moment I had never felt so low or ever experienced depression before.
As soon as I started reading I sensed that honesty and life was looking for a way into my heart and maybe you feel like this too, have you ever sensed that when someone was speaking to you though you wanted to resist you knew that what they were saying they were right? in your interpretation, your thinking why are they coming at me but you knew they were speaking directly to you and you knew they were speaking from a heart of love & concern? have you ever been in this situation before, I know I have multiple times.
This heart... my heart oh was it very closed off, dishonest, lacking understanding, feeling rejected, disappointed, heart broken, confused, lonely, sad, lacking love for self, tired, fed up and hurt which I tried to hide in my life but as I continued reading I soon discovered that this ladies heart had love, honesty & life see right through all that she was pretending as she was trying to be strong, He came to remind her who she was and who's she was and it was Jesus! Not only was He speaking to her, He also was speaking to me, right there in my room God the creator of the world's love & power penetrated my soul and awakened my eyes & mind to the truth I never saw. Reading the book my perspective changed and I discovered that I was far from Him in my sin and I recognised where I had been for 30 years, the deep parts of me that I had withheld, how I was responding to the world and what I had done but in His unconditional grace & love He showed me that He saw & knew everything about me and He wanted to let me know that I am seen & heard in my pain caused to myself, what I had done to others and what I felt from others, He didn't shame me though I felt it (as you do when you know someone is lovingly giving you feedback about yourself just like a Father), He immediately loved me right where I was showing me that He is there, in that moment I instantly felt love surround me that I have never felt before and it was so undeserving but it just kept coming.
He gently in His love & truth came to say this.... I understand the pain you have been experiencing as you have continually tried to survive everything being thrown at you like only how you know but here is the truth, you have been blinded in this way since birth by the consequence of the fall of Adam & Eve and you have been living off what you have known & seen which has been twisting what actually is truth, but I have come to give you life & life abundantly, the truth is that sin entered the world as the devil twisted my words and the decision made gave the enemy an open door to impart deceptive power into the minds of mankind and this includes you to, he has been controlling and clouding your mind, your eyes & actions to make you think & believe that this is how life is supposed to be and as you have been believing & living it separation has happened between Me and you but because of who I AM, my Faithfulness, My love, Grace and Mercy, I want eyes to be opened to my true design to experience what I designed for this life... to see how I see things above what has been internalized and how it was originally meant to be because it is Good! that is why 2000 years ago I sent myself the Word made flesh in the body of Jesus Christ for the world to see again, see Me again, know me, love me, live for me and be Mine again.
The world how it is, is not what I originally planned sin has done this and I want to draw people back to Myself. What you have been internalising about your life & yourself is not what I have for you or who you are, by My grace & mercy I have known you since you were born crafted in your mother's womb, I understand what you have gone through and I know this is a lot to take in right now but over time you will get to know Me beyond your pain and with understanding know what I have done, who you are, who you are to me and what I have for you, you have survived your way through reaching for things that will not truly satisfy you, now let me bring true satisfaction and life abundantly"
"The robber only wants to take away my sheep. He wants to kill them. He comes only to destroy them. But I have come so that they can have true life. And so that they can have everything that they need." EASY
"The thief comes only in order to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have and enjoy life, and have it in abundance (to the full, till it overflows)". AMPC
"The thief comes with the sole intention of stealing and killing and destroying, but I came to bring them life, and far more life than before". PHILLIPS
Jesus has torn the veil that separated us from the Father to draw us near again, right there on the cross He made a way for us to receive the Father's love, to have hope, life again, truth to know the truth about who we truly are, freedom in mind, wisdom to make the right decisions, forgiveness for ourselves & others, healing within & outwardly and forgiveness from God and He also gave us the strength to overcome our struggles through the precious Holy Spirit.
Jesus said he came to give us life and life abundantly and I have been a living testimony seeing more of this truth graciously work in my own life internally and externally.
Truth & Love penetrated my heart in that moment of reading that book and I gave my life to Christ right in my room whilst on the phone with my auntie in September 2020! My life has never been the same since, now I live to give Glory to God!
God has a plan for our lives and my passion and why I am here today (writing this on the 21.05.2026) after a long wrestle of spiritual warfare is to share and see His plan come to pass in my life and also in yours, my desire and heart for you is to share with you the true heart of the Father for us through the experiences that I have had since September 2020 so you can be encouraged and empowered seeing that we are never alone, I will show you what I have been learning, discovering, coming to know, healing, removing, unlearning and rebuilding in my life to be more like Jesus Christ and who He originally intended me to be, I'll show you what I have been understanding what it truly means to live a surrendered life to His will just as Jesus did, to truly know the purpose of the cross in our lives and to die to ourselves, yes there is pain, yes it will feel uncomfortable because a surrendered life is doing what is opposite to what our flesh wants but just like Jesus said to us as a promise to hold "I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have [perfect] peace and confidence. In the world you have tribulation and trials and distress and frustration; but be of good cheer [take courage; be confident, certain, undaunted]! For I have overcome the world. [I have deprived it of power to harm you and have conquered it for you. Having this promise I know on the other side of the tribulation will be worth it because Jesus is worth it!
Matthew 19:16-26
16 And behold, a man came up to him, saying, “Teacher, what good deed must I do to have eternal life?” 17 And he said to him, “Why do you ask me about what is good? There is only one who is good. If you would enter life, keep the commandments.” 18 He said to him, “Which ones?” And Jesus said, “You shall not murder, You shall not commit adultery, You shall not steal, You shall not bear false witness, 19 Honor your father and mother, and, You shall love your neighbour as yourself.” 20 The young man said to him, “All these I have kept. What do I still lack?” 21 Jesus said to him, “If you would be perfect, go, sell what you possess and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, follow me.” 22 When the young man heard this he went away sorrowful, for he had great possessions.
23 And Jesus said to his disciples, “Truly, I say to you, only with difficulty will a rich person enter the kingdom of heaven. 24 Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich person to enter the kingdom of God.” 25 When the disciples heard this, they were greatly astonished, saying, “Who then can be saved?” 26 But Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
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